it's funny how dependent i am on social media. i made a vow to myself to refrain from FB and Twitter until Boards are done at the end of Feb... yet I find my Blogger account! Tricky-Tray...

Lady Gaga

Let me declare right now I love Lady Gaga. Honestly, I think its because I can't figure her out, which is probably her goal, to keep people guessing. Every performance, appearance she does she makes it a memorable one nonetheless.

If you look through every generation of music, there is at least one or maybe even more than one artist that dared to cross the line to express themselves, in recent times just in my short lifetime and just in my culture alone, there's been Madonna, Elton John, David Bowie, and duh, even the late Michael Jackson himself.

Note: I'm one of those pessimistic individuals who believe that as human beings, there is little to no creativity left in the world. Basically I feel that every theme that one can come up with, has been examined. (That's why I think I stick to the Classics, for some reason, to me they still remain their uniqueness). For example, look at all of the movies Hollywood puts out. I'm to the point where I can guess just by looking at the trailer, what the movie is about and almost exactly what's going to happen. Especially in romantic comedies.

Back to Lady Gaga...I consider myself to be a pretty open minded person. I'm also pretty individual and have the guts to stand myself and declare I want to do or that I like something that most people would not admit to. I think its cool how Gaga, does whatever she wants! For some artitsts you can definitly see how the people behind them kind of shaped them up to who they are and how they are perceived. A really good example of this is Britney Spears. You can clearly tell she followed obediently what she was told to do by her creative directors from a very young age-- probabaly not allowed to be herself, and well, as everybody can witness, she kind of got crazy, and lost herself. Lady G, clearly does what she wants, no (excuse my language), no fucking bullshit. She's herself, her own creative director, and even though there are plently of people that don't like it. She keeps on reinventing herself and lives up to her own standards.

As a woman of the 21st century...hmm, let me rephrase, as a Black woman of the 21st century, I think this concept is pretty cool. Breaking away from what everybody expects to express and be yourself to fulfill YOUR OWN LIFE and make YOUR OWN happiness. Because at the end of the day, it's about you (you know what I mean).

Funny thought -- of course you know there's all kind of rumors: that she's a man, a "hermaphrodite", gay, blah blah.. I recently saw her on the Jay Leno Show, and he asked her what was the most offensive rumor that's out about her. She said, it was the rumor that she's from Yonkers (a city in New York). I admire how some people can break out from others to create their own happiness and find humor and glamor in the ridiculousness of peoples ignorance.

*Haters Gonna Hate*

that's the truthdotcom

Screw Him

*sigh* men are men..some are sweet some are poison

I'm done torturing myself.

Love Affair

I love to read. Pretty much anything with words I'll read.

I think I remember how it started. I was really really young, I forget the age, but definitely before Kindergarten. Anyways, my dad always listened to talk radio. And one of the ads was a program to learn a foreign language. I forget the language that I desperately wanted learn, but my dad was like, "well you can't really learn a foreign language that way until you can read." I remember replying, "Daddy I want to learn how to read! Now!" Soon after, my dad had purchased all of these really simple books, and before you know it, I was in class, my teachers at my daycare teachers staring at me in disbelief as I read books like "The Cat and the Hat", and "Green Eggs & Ham", with little or even no help at all. I think that's when my love affair of the written word began.

My parents raised me very strict (thank god!), or at least at the time I though so. I wasn't really allowed to watch TV (which at the time I absolutely hated). I couldn't watch TV on school nights, on Fridays & Saturdays, I could watch two hours, but not past 10pm. Sundays I could watch an hour and a half. In addition to all that. On Fridays after school, I had to turn in a TV schedule for the weekend (which detailed which shows I was watching, the time and what channel it was on). This went on until high school, 9th grade I could watch TV on the weekends, and eventually I used good grades to allow me to watch TV anytime I wanted.

As you can tell, this left me with plenty of free time. Free time to read! I would read anything. I used to have this plastic bookshelf stuffed with all types of books, from the Babysitters's Club, Sweet Valley Twins, Kiddy Novels, Goosebumps, and tons of Magazines (not like Teen Bop with pictures of Usher and Hanson either, like substantial Mags ). I was a really fast reader, so fast my mom actually declared to stop buying books and made me get a library card. Which is another story of its own, because, ESPECIALLY in the summer, for the summer reading club, I would reach the end and get all of the prizes so early on, I would go up to the library, "okay what's next?!"

Needless to say I had an addiction. I snuck books into class and read under my desk when the teacher wasn't looking, a bedtime I read by nightlight, I read in the tub, on the toilet. In high school I was pretty much obsessed with every book that was assigned to us (well, except for the Scarlet Letter, and Beowulf....*barf*)

Then college. I took two African-American Lit classes. And my reading assignments pretty much trumped everything again. As I my life experiences changes, my preferences in reading changed to, I started liking, biographies (Miep Gies is my favorite), mysteries (Mary Higgins Clark), and of course THE CLASSICS (The Brontë Sisters, Austen, Dumas, Dostoevsky, Huxley, etc, everything get the picture?

In short, I've really become appreciative for my ability to read. If it wasn't for the things I learn from them, the places that they take me, or experiences that I get to experience, I don't know where would I be and who would I be now. Books and my love of literature in some ways have gotten me though some pretty tough stuff, those ugly teenage girl years every girl tries to suppress, boredom, madness, sadness, insanity, foolishness, and currently helping me get through what I think is my first broken heart.

Don't take the simple things for granted. I volunteer at a homeless shelter and witness firsthand that even though the literacy rate in the USA, is 99% (CIA World Factbook) there are plenty of adults who cannot read or write.

Take Pride and Be thankful for the smallest things <3

Major in College

Looking Back, I picked the wrong major in college. Don't get me wrong, I love the health sciences and chemistry. But i'll be working with that the rest of my life. It would have been nice to step out of my comfort zone a bit.

Yeah I picked something that would conveniently work along with being a pre-dental student, so what? Okay let's brainstorm, what would have also been nice?

A Theater Major:

I was going to be in the Vagina Monologues. And, personally, I LOVE it!! I am relatively a shy person. It takes me a good minute to get used to new people. And it is oh so difficult to talk in front of a room full of my peers when giving a group speech about the Tricarboxylic Acid Cycle. But put me on a stage there's no pressure, put the spotlight on me, and let the acid trip begin. I'm the youngest in my family, and also the only girl, so of course attention was always on me. I'm not gonna lie, I still enjoy it (well, as long as it's Positive Attention)

Comparative Literature and/or English Major:

You've already seen my love letter to words and books. This would have been another perfect compliment to my personality. But would I have walked away feeling the same about what a read, would it have burnt me out. I think it might. At this point in my life. Reading is still a treat, not a chore, I might not liked being told that I HAVE to read this. (I'm not very good with following authority, and I don't do homework).

Sociology Major:

Everybody I know that's a sociology major gets to take these really crazy fun sounding classes.

I took Soc100, and LOVED it (it didn't hurt that my prof was a cutie either). Not too many classes I had assignments that I enjoyed doing like in this class, not just pushing electron around on a piece of paper or something. You get to learn about people and how they work. Experience and discuss topics you otherwise would have never even thought about.

hmmm?

23 Years OLD

Really Random and Quick Post. Only because I haven't posted in ages.

I am now 23! yay..

I really wanted to do like a list of 23 lessons I've learned in these years. But I've learned sooooo many things this year alone it would pretty darn difficult to pick out just a few. So I'm gonna post the lessons that have been difficult for me to learn, and still have to keep myself in check and work on. I have more than the two I'm gonna list today. But these are the ones at the top of my mind right now.

a.) Sometimes good shit happens (and, yes i might have gotten this concept from a TV show). You can take life two different ways. "Boo-Hoo bad stuff keeps happening poor me", Or "damn that sucks, but I'm going to move on". This is by far the hardest lesson. 2009 Was/err I guess still a rough year. Been in some tough situations, did things that I may or may not regret, might have even gotten my heart broken just a little bit. But sometimes I just have wince at all of the time I literally wasted feeling sorry for myself. SERIOUSLY?! seriously. So anytime I catch myself falling back into the pattern of doing it again, I have to remind myself that good shit happens too. And I'd better get my attitude straight so I can properly enjoy the good shit coming my way. (does that make since?)

b.) When it comes to men, always put yourself first. It's actually a really difficult thing to do, because as females I swear we have this nurturing gene in us, but it totally helps to fight it off. (Especially since men are simply AMAZING at putting themselves first) And believe me, even if its the guy you've been quite obsessed with for months calling you texting and wanting you to do something tonight -- right now!, it's always good to say NO sometimes, even if you don't want to, even if it kills you a little bit inside to do so. Because there's nothing like the feeling of control over yourself you get when you do so.

More to come at a later date..told you it was gonna be short.

15 Weeks...

In so many ways this has been one of the most emotionally draining summers I've ever had. And I'm not going to lie when I say I'm glad that its over. Granted, I am kind of shitty that I wasted a lot of my time pining over things that looking back seem totally stupid (well, most things)



At first I went through a 'pity party' because a great deal of my friends just graduated and I didn't not. I'm graduating a semester behind, now that i look at it..Big Deal. But I guess my reasoning was most of my friends are gone. I would say the greatest number of them graduated in '08.. so in '09 i felt like the rest of them are gone. I have sorority sisters left, which is GREAT :) , but guess I need to kinda sorta make new friends too. Some scary stuff cuz i'm not the most friendliest person to new people. Not on purpose, but I need to feel them out.



I'm actually kind of grateful for the about situation, because in some some ways it helped me work harder for my DAT. For some reason, I seem to work harder when I'm fustrated about something, so the graduation situation plus a few other personal things totally helped me out. Espcially that last week..wow..how did I survive? haha..



So applications are IN and the wait begins. I was really worried and stressed out about writing my personal statement, mainly because the reasons why I want to be a dentist are really personal and close to my heart. But I think It came out great, I don't know what my reccomendations say, we have the option to look, opted out. I can't imagine them being too terrible...right



Oh so here is where I applied. In no order:

1.) Indiana

2.) U. Michigan

3.) U Southern Cal

4.) Texas - San Antonio

5.) UMDNJ

6.) Colmubia (No way in hell id get, but I wanted an even number, lol)