Lady Gaga

Let me declare right now I love Lady Gaga. Honestly, I think its because I can't figure her out, which is probably her goal, to keep people guessing. Every performance, appearance she does she makes it a memorable one nonetheless.

If you look through every generation of music, there is at least one or maybe even more than one artist that dared to cross the line to express themselves, in recent times just in my short lifetime and just in my culture alone, there's been Madonna, Elton John, David Bowie, and duh, even the late Michael Jackson himself.

Note: I'm one of those pessimistic individuals who believe that as human beings, there is little to no creativity left in the world. Basically I feel that every theme that one can come up with, has been examined. (That's why I think I stick to the Classics, for some reason, to me they still remain their uniqueness). For example, look at all of the movies Hollywood puts out. I'm to the point where I can guess just by looking at the trailer, what the movie is about and almost exactly what's going to happen. Especially in romantic comedies.

Back to Lady Gaga...I consider myself to be a pretty open minded person. I'm also pretty individual and have the guts to stand myself and declare I want to do or that I like something that most people would not admit to. I think its cool how Gaga, does whatever she wants! For some artitsts you can definitly see how the people behind them kind of shaped them up to who they are and how they are perceived. A really good example of this is Britney Spears. You can clearly tell she followed obediently what she was told to do by her creative directors from a very young age-- probabaly not allowed to be herself, and well, as everybody can witness, she kind of got crazy, and lost herself. Lady G, clearly does what she wants, no (excuse my language), no fucking bullshit. She's herself, her own creative director, and even though there are plently of people that don't like it. She keeps on reinventing herself and lives up to her own standards.

As a woman of the 21st century...hmm, let me rephrase, as a Black woman of the 21st century, I think this concept is pretty cool. Breaking away from what everybody expects to express and be yourself to fulfill YOUR OWN LIFE and make YOUR OWN happiness. Because at the end of the day, it's about you (you know what I mean).

Funny thought -- of course you know there's all kind of rumors: that she's a man, a "hermaphrodite", gay, blah blah.. I recently saw her on the Jay Leno Show, and he asked her what was the most offensive rumor that's out about her. She said, it was the rumor that she's from Yonkers (a city in New York). I admire how some people can break out from others to create their own happiness and find humor and glamor in the ridiculousness of peoples ignorance.

*Haters Gonna Hate*

that's the truthdotcom

Screw Him

*sigh* men are men..some are sweet some are poison

I'm done torturing myself.

Love Affair

I love to read. Pretty much anything with words I'll read.

I think I remember how it started. I was really really young, I forget the age, but definitely before Kindergarten. Anyways, my dad always listened to talk radio. And one of the ads was a program to learn a foreign language. I forget the language that I desperately wanted learn, but my dad was like, "well you can't really learn a foreign language that way until you can read." I remember replying, "Daddy I want to learn how to read! Now!" Soon after, my dad had purchased all of these really simple books, and before you know it, I was in class, my teachers at my daycare teachers staring at me in disbelief as I read books like "The Cat and the Hat", and "Green Eggs & Ham", with little or even no help at all. I think that's when my love affair of the written word began.

My parents raised me very strict (thank god!), or at least at the time I though so. I wasn't really allowed to watch TV (which at the time I absolutely hated). I couldn't watch TV on school nights, on Fridays & Saturdays, I could watch two hours, but not past 10pm. Sundays I could watch an hour and a half. In addition to all that. On Fridays after school, I had to turn in a TV schedule for the weekend (which detailed which shows I was watching, the time and what channel it was on). This went on until high school, 9th grade I could watch TV on the weekends, and eventually I used good grades to allow me to watch TV anytime I wanted.

As you can tell, this left me with plenty of free time. Free time to read! I would read anything. I used to have this plastic bookshelf stuffed with all types of books, from the Babysitters's Club, Sweet Valley Twins, Kiddy Novels, Goosebumps, and tons of Magazines (not like Teen Bop with pictures of Usher and Hanson either, like substantial Mags ). I was a really fast reader, so fast my mom actually declared to stop buying books and made me get a library card. Which is another story of its own, because, ESPECIALLY in the summer, for the summer reading club, I would reach the end and get all of the prizes so early on, I would go up to the library, "okay what's next?!"

Needless to say I had an addiction. I snuck books into class and read under my desk when the teacher wasn't looking, a bedtime I read by nightlight, I read in the tub, on the toilet. In high school I was pretty much obsessed with every book that was assigned to us (well, except for the Scarlet Letter, and Beowulf....*barf*)

Then college. I took two African-American Lit classes. And my reading assignments pretty much trumped everything again. As I my life experiences changes, my preferences in reading changed to, I started liking, biographies (Miep Gies is my favorite), mysteries (Mary Higgins Clark), and of course THE CLASSICS (The Brontë Sisters, Austen, Dumas, Dostoevsky, Huxley, etc, everything get the picture?

In short, I've really become appreciative for my ability to read. If it wasn't for the things I learn from them, the places that they take me, or experiences that I get to experience, I don't know where would I be and who would I be now. Books and my love of literature in some ways have gotten me though some pretty tough stuff, those ugly teenage girl years every girl tries to suppress, boredom, madness, sadness, insanity, foolishness, and currently helping me get through what I think is my first broken heart.

Don't take the simple things for granted. I volunteer at a homeless shelter and witness firsthand that even though the literacy rate in the USA, is 99% (CIA World Factbook) there are plenty of adults who cannot read or write.

Take Pride and Be thankful for the smallest things <3

Major in College

Looking Back, I picked the wrong major in college. Don't get me wrong, I love the health sciences and chemistry. But i'll be working with that the rest of my life. It would have been nice to step out of my comfort zone a bit.

Yeah I picked something that would conveniently work along with being a pre-dental student, so what? Okay let's brainstorm, what would have also been nice?

A Theater Major:

I was going to be in the Vagina Monologues. And, personally, I LOVE it!! I am relatively a shy person. It takes me a good minute to get used to new people. And it is oh so difficult to talk in front of a room full of my peers when giving a group speech about the Tricarboxylic Acid Cycle. But put me on a stage there's no pressure, put the spotlight on me, and let the acid trip begin. I'm the youngest in my family, and also the only girl, so of course attention was always on me. I'm not gonna lie, I still enjoy it (well, as long as it's Positive Attention)

Comparative Literature and/or English Major:

You've already seen my love letter to words and books. This would have been another perfect compliment to my personality. But would I have walked away feeling the same about what a read, would it have burnt me out. I think it might. At this point in my life. Reading is still a treat, not a chore, I might not liked being told that I HAVE to read this. (I'm not very good with following authority, and I don't do homework).

Sociology Major:

Everybody I know that's a sociology major gets to take these really crazy fun sounding classes.

I took Soc100, and LOVED it (it didn't hurt that my prof was a cutie either). Not too many classes I had assignments that I enjoyed doing like in this class, not just pushing electron around on a piece of paper or something. You get to learn about people and how they work. Experience and discuss topics you otherwise would have never even thought about.

hmmm?